I was just having a bit of brainstorming, mixing fun today. It seems that I'm seeing new relationship status updates on Facebook everyday, to the tune of "So-and-so is now single"! All over the place -- people from ISU, people from Truman, et cetera... The mix is a bit of a hodge-podge; there's a little mayhem involved... but it's a mayhem with method, you see? I feel I've covered a broad range of break-up emotions, whether you're the dumper (sad) or the dumpee (sadder)! These feelings have been remarked upon in little notes I've made for each song, sort of to encapsulate all of the different nasty/good feelings surrounding break-ups. So, for all my lonely hearts, and all my free, independent spirits, Marion's Premium Break-Up Mix:

1. Roses - Outkast
[You're a stanky byatch and I wish you'd stop going around pretending you're all that, because, honestly, you're not that fine. And I hope you're trying to put on your make-up in the mirror and crash, crash, CRASH into a ditch. (Just playin')]
2. I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry - Al Green
[I'm so lonesome... uhm, well... Al Green's pretty good at explaining things in his titles, so whatev. Skip this one.]
3. Love Gone Wrong - Lauren Hoffman
[We're over! But I'm still attached! But it's over! But I still love you! But this is bad for me! But... I still love you... gah! I hate you!!]
4. This A Breakup Song - Jamie Radford
[I fucked up and threw away the best thing that ever happened to me. Shit.]
5. Another Woman - Moby
[You've been cheating on me, motherfucker... Or at least you want to! Motherfucker!]
6. L'Amour Perdu - Paul Cargnello
[So much uncertainty! So much doubt! Despair! Lies! Lost love!]
7. For Lovin' Me - Gordon Lightfoot
[Well, it's not my fault you love me... I'm going to go find some more bitches!]
8. Frank's Wild Years - Tom Waits
[Unhappily married. Arson. Yup.]
9. Tonight Was A Disaster - Casiotone For The Painfully Alone
[I was fine, and then I heard that one song... and... and... I just couldn't take it!]
10. Everybody's a Fool Sometimes - Kieran McMahon
[Life is so hard... Everybody has to be stupid. I'm stupid.]
11. Your Beauty Is A Knife I Turn On My Throat - Eagle*Seagull
[God, your existence is so goddamn painful. More doubt. I'm in love, but I'm so goddamn lonely. Worship and greed, baby.]
12. The Hurt - Cat Stevens
[Well, if you wouldn't have hurt me so bad, I'd still be naive enough to love someone like you... so, thanks!]
13. Bye Bye Love - Simon & Garfunkel
[Aw, I'm not good enough for you... You have to go and leave me for someone else! Tear!]
14. Free Fallin' - Tom Petty
[You're a good girl, but honestly... uhm... yeah, this just doesn't work for me... *tires screeching*]
15. Put Me Down - The Cranberries
[I love you, but you make me feel like horseshit, always proving me wrong and putting me down. I can't take this anymore!]
16. I Luv The Valley Oh - Xiu Xiu
[I can't stand your happiness. You're just trying to rub your good fortune in my face, so I hope I manage to break your fucking heart, mutherfucker. Feel the burn!]
17. Love Punch - The Chalets
[First line: "At first you were a dream, but now you're a nightmare!"]
18. I'm Lonely (But I Ain't That Lonely Yet) - The White Stripes
[Yeah, you think I'm going to give in to my shitty feelings, but you know what, I eat suffering for breakfast, so fuck you!]

In the past six or so years, I've had intimate experience with the emotions displayed in songs 1, 2, 3, 5, 9, 12, 13, 15, 16, 17, and 18. Has my varied experience taught me anything about how to avoid pain in relationships? Uh, obviously not. But, as I have often been assured, I'm young, and I have lots of love to give, and perhaps more of it to lose.

The mix probably needs a little work. The transitions are fine; the content leaves a lot to be desired. I actually gave all of my best break-up music to Paige months ago, just because most of it was too painful to listen to habitually. I'll have to get most of it back to pad my mix with.

Zhora and Vtalik came over tonight to watch The Gods Must Be Crazy 2. If any of you haven't seen the first movie and its sequel, both come highly recommended from me. The humor takes a little while to get used to, but once you do, it's funny as hell. Little Dude laughed his balls off at certain parts, at least. Only one class tomorrow. Little Dude said that if he can get off work from his first job early, he'll take me out to eat somewhere nice. Sweet.

There's a poetry slam coming up soon -- on my birthday, actually. I'm going to be there, performing a little piece about nerd love -- Rob was kind enough to let me know when to show up to get a slot for the open mic. Maybe, someday, I'll have enough balls to actually compete in a slam! But, for now, I'll play it safe. Anyway, yes... Coffeehouse, 7:30, Tuesday. Be there or be rhomboid.

I'm planning to have a party this weekend at the Trailer Park. If anyone's going to be in town and interested in helping me celebrate my 20th, contact me for directions, and I'll be happy to have you along! Not sure what the events for the evening will be, although I can promise a pretty decent time for all. They have a pool table. It's all good.

Labels: mixes, movies, Vtalik, Zhora

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